Tension
Aha...this is specially for Pamela and Monica! ^.^
J8, 22 Aug, 7.30pm
They were so Zhan4!!! ^.^ My back was aching like crazy already before we actually saw them, but we were like super hyper, jumping and screaming like crazy when they were dancing and singing?!! ^.^
Before that we actually changed into our PE shirt, cause we were stinking like crazy, after our cross country, 3.2km. ^.^
So it's like, we were waiting, and when they said Tension was here, we stood up, starting screaming and cheering like what-nots, and actually threw our bags down onto the floor.
They sang Gotta Be Your Man first, if i'm not wrong. Because once they came out, they got into their dance positions immediately. The atmosphere was so high, and i couldn't stop shrieking at them! It's like uncontrollable. Hahaha.. Sorry if i harm your ears HayDee, but i really can't help myself! ^.^ Their dance steps are all so... Whao~! ^.^
Was a little surprised that Brian seems to be the lead singer for almost all the songs.! =) He's a real born performer, and very western too. All their voices are Zhan4. Zhan4 Zhan4 Zhan4! ^.^ Quite disappointed they didn't sing Amazing Grace that night, but still.. =) Their vocals - WAH... ^.^ Hahaha...
We could only get one album signed at one time, and only the Gotta Be Your Man album. Quite disappointed that i couldn't get their Smart album signed, but hey, i've seen them dance and sing and everything Live! =) So i got mine signed first, and Andy was really nice to write my name! ^.^ But while i was up there, i was so stunned and everything i just mumbled a Thank You and nothing much. =x They are really nice, shaking your hand and looking into your eyes after they've signed your album. When Huka talk to John, and John actually strain his neck to hear what she's saying! Is that sweet or what =) Hark... I still remember, while we were standing at the side, Andy looks just like a porceline doll! I mean, no offense but i'm just staring and he look so flawless and perfect, and as though once you touch him, you'll spoil the beauty of it all. hahaha... But of course it's just a still sight. =) When he's dancing or singing... ^.^ And not that i didn't notice the others or anything because Andy's just sitting by the side, and while we're waiting for our chance, we could only see his side view. his nose is so nice =)
Gosh, i just realised how freaky it can be. Especially hearing or reading someone analyzing you like that. =x lalala...
have i mentioned that everyone of them shakes your hand?? =) Sweet! ^.^ Hahahaha, a phrase i learnt from America. ^.^
So I have to go up a second time to get Monica's signed. I hoped and hoped and wished that they'll write Happy Birthday Monica or just simply Monica, but they didn't. I guess it's the time limit, cause its like they left only five minutes and i'm still a long way off? I was so freaked out that i won't be able to get Monica's signed!! I really hoped to get that as a surprised for her =) I mean yea, it's [Shawna they all]'s birthday persent to her, but still.. ^.^ But John was very sweet. He saw my post-it-note with [Happy Birthday Monica] on top, and asked me 'Are you Monica?' But i'm not. I said it's for my friend, and mentioned that she like him a lot [and remembered afterwards its raymond. i'm the one who always fight with her John is nicer =) hahaha] but i didn't think he heard cause he was sneezing. Eh. Bless You!! ^.^ But it's like the second time i was up, i wasn't feeling high. Was quite tired all a sudden cause my back was really irritating me. =x So i wasn't planning to shake hands with them again, but Andy was the first one, and its like he's looking at your expectantly, so i had to fumble around with the plastic bags in my hand and shoke hands with all of them again. But i'm not complaining~ =) hahah.. But this time too, i didn't say anything to them except for Thankew. Sigh... Wanted to tell them to take care of themselves, and especially their back since they're dancing so much. but the mood just wasn't there. =x
Went inside the shopping center after i've gotten Monica's signed, but afterwards ran in with HuKa again to see them leave =) Really had fun and enjoyed their singing and dancing. =)
HMV, 23 Aug [Monica's Birthday =)], 4pm
Went to see Tension again with HuKa. Though we've got no album to signed this time since HMV needs pass, but we were happy just to see them sing and dance. =) Though the atmosphere wasn't as high as yesterday night, they did the accapella versh of Amazing Grace! ^.^ So happy, and recorded it in my phone =) Hahaha... But they looked tired....
Tension Diao3! ^.^
Tension Two years later, even more Diao3! ^.^
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HAIL TO TAGBOARD! hahahaha.. =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONICA!!
Yesterday was Cross Country. ^.^ It's fun. I mean, l wasn't too fond of it last year, but i don't know why this year it seems to rawk! Hahaha... the whole thing doesn't seem that long already =) Got 241, but I'm very happy with it already =) I didn't even get a placing last year! Hark... And after that we went to see Tension!!! And we took neoprint =) Ah....i shall blog a detailed entry about Tension. =) I think those autograph sessions really help me destress a lot. You get to scream, you get to hollar and you get to jump. What's so bad about that? ^.^ Except for the part whereby my back was hurting like crazee and felt as though it broke into two. =x And when i got home, the atmosphere was tense. Didn't like that. =x Lalalala....
Took so much neo print that day.!! =) Before Cross Country, me sophia luling and pamela went Far East. =) We actually planned to take neoprint and go to the playground, but No time!! So no playground. Quite sad =| But i like those neo prints that we took!! Hahaha... Pamela scanned them in =) We took one machine, went Hans and gorged, and took another Two machines. ^.^ I love those pictures!! hahaha.. Thanks Pamela for exChanging with me the 1.6m one!! ^.^
And today, went out with HuKa my sis and her friend and my mom =) After a while, me and HuKa abandoned them and went HMV. Saw Tension again!! They sang the accapella versh of Amazing Grace. Ahh!! ^.^ hahahaha... Quite disappointed didn't manage to take neoprint with my mom and sis [my sis still thinks that $3 is enough =x haha ] But still quite happy =) Spent one hour waiting for taxi home, but saw these few cute Jap girls =) And this baby which is so adorable!! ^.^ Lalala...and urm, let's see. I ate one apple pie, noodle, tuna sandwich,rice,jelly,chicken wings,satay,ard half a lampchop,salmon and two pieces of cake for dinner Urm, not much larh.
And aside from the fact my legs are breaking, i think i'm still surviving. =)
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Blea...i don't know what's wrong with the TagBoard... =x
Anyway, in school now. Having Debates elective, and we're suppose to be searching for articles and stuff... So urm, yea. Couldn't resist the temptation to blog. Though no one reads it anyway~ ^.^
Cyn Li is still not back yet. Wonder how's her competition =)
AHaha...HuiWen is typing furiously behind me..and mradrainchan is asking us to refrain from using sms language because 'he's monitering us'. =x He's sitting at the com in front of me. Lalala...
So we're having our Cross Country later. Like i'm suppose to be happy about it? But we're gonna have fun before that. .=) Take NeoPrints, go Playground.. ^.^ My favourite! I love playgrounds =) And i need to get Tension's album because i'm going their Autograph session after the Cross Country with HuKa =) And i have like ard 5 of their albums to be signed. Including Monica's birthday one =) If its possible, i think i'll ask them to write a Happy Birthdayon top. ^.^ Monica will be so surprised to see it!! =) And monica said, "Help me kiss Raymond!" (.___.) Hahahahaha...
Aha.. Pamela, if you're reading this, this is for you...
I hereby declare that i'll not hit Pamela until she is 1.6m tall.
Signed, TianCai~ ^.^
Ahahaha...I'm resisting the urge to pop the sweet into my mouth. Ren3 Ren3 Ren3.... >.<
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Things are Changing...
Officially from the last IPW lesson, OM is over. The sense of belonging, the sense of pride. It's all gone. Walking down the science block staircase one day, walking by the eco pond, the place wehre we work our butts off, the place where we store our props. The images and scenes from the past flashed by. I can just see us working there, see WeiShyuan painting the umbrella by herself, see us lying on the bridge talking about life. But it's not with sadness that i view those things. I was quiet for a moment, thinking through again about all those time, and i realised its finally time i let go. OM is not forever. And on that day, the day of our presentation. It ended already. The memories are sweet, and longing. But what can i do? I can't possibly turn back the clock and be in denial anymore. minYuan ah. mei you le jiu shi mei you le. And i just realised. We don't have an OM neoprint.. I wonder,a few more months down the road, will i still be just as stuck onto OM as i am now? Or will it be something that slowly fades away with time. Are these emotions which i'm feeling real? Or are they just a part of this illusion which i've created myself. An illusion that i'm actually a sensitive enough person who needs reassurance and not this nothing-matters-anyway person. What will happen when i wake up from this dream? I'm not sure what i'm writing about already...
Reading the other people's blog. People who are my buddies, people whom i don't even know if they knew anymore that i exist, people who have no idea i'm reading their blogs. I felt so... lonely. I don't know if that's the right word. They seemed so loved and so happy. They belonged. It looks like the seveners are drifting apart already. Always looking for some snippets around of the Seveners, some pictures, some notes just to say that we're still remembered. There isn't any. Drifting apart... I have this feeling that we're drifting apart. I'm just this bystander giving a glance at what is happening around me, and soon i'll just fade away. We'er no longer what we used to be, and everyone seem to be able to settle into their new lives, their new routines, while i feel as though its just the start of the year. I'm possesive. I'm very insecure. And looking as those cheery remarks, those happy trips which they've planned, I've finally understood i'm not part of them. Nothing is forever....Don't say Forever, cause Forever makes me cry...
I don't know what's going-on. Maybe i'm just PMSing, or maybe i'm really waking up to reality, and realised not everything is 'pink and purple'. Just woke up to the fact that not everything is the way it seems to be. What goes on under, who knows? Its unfortunate then if you happen to find out. What's the use of knowing so much... I may laugh it off in school, and who knows its something that really hurts me. What the others are thinking about us, when all along I thought we were 'all friends'. I feel like smashing their heads and go, Look you guys' don't even exist until now oKay. Or i may gawk at everyone's stupidity, but i do not like what is going on.
and now. politics and politics. the politics that 15yr-olds are exposed to. and yes, i'm going to say that i don't like it again. because i know that you guys aren't suppose to be that way. ...jian3 dan1 dan1 chun2 yi4 dian3 bu4 hao3 ma1... Perhaps i'm the one who is making everything complex. I admire huKa. Look at her blog. every single entry seemed to be ending with a smile. bouncy said this to me before...you think everyone like you, everyday also so happy ah.. ... That's only because i'm with you guys. You guys are what makes me smile. But are you all part of my fantasy too? When i wake up from it. It's nothing but lonliness.
When we're doing OM, why does everything seems so simple. Maybe because we're so absorbed into what we're doing, i'll treasure every single minute of it. Everyone seems to be nicer, and closer. Now that OM is gone. Everything becomes clearer. And reality slams into my face. Yes i'm boiling it down to OM again. I'm obsessed with it. Clare said all my entries have OM in it. OM OM OM... wake up minYuan. It's over.
oK. That's it i guess. i've crapped enough. seeking attention this big faker. So everyone please just ignore me. and i shall end with a smile. =) Enough of that psycho-ing already minYuan. ....just relax.look at things simple and stop using your braincells on those things that brings no happiness to you. just go back to eating a packet of chips everyday. Nothing happened just now~ Time to catch Holland V. =)
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Ah!!Finally i'm blogging again. Haven't been online for some time... =) And Thanks to HuiXin, my BackGround Music is up =) Lalala...
Don't know what's up...Feeling kinda sad these few days. //shrug// It's like waking up to reality, and realising things are changing.
And i don't like it.
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